As the beginning of my fourth year of blogging commences, I find myself reflecting back on all those emails, comments, and asides from countless people asking me:
“How do you find the time to blog? It sounds like you’re running in 10 different directions at once.”
I’d always shrug the “busy” factor off, knowing that blogging was a fun and satisfying activity. I always seemed to find the time, even if it seemed like my schedule was insane on paper.
This fall, it’s like someone jammed my schedule into overdrive, and, quite frankly, I’m tired. Tired of driving all over the place. Tired of being a student teacher. Tired of having everyone want a piece of me. Even blogging, the activity that I always seemed to find time to do, has burned me out.
I’m tired of working so hard all the time. Tired of never having a moment of time to myself. Tired of never being able to go out for dinner (unless you count a frantic KFC scarfing 25 minutes before a gig as dinner) or being able to see a movie. Tired of the ceaseless pace of my stupid schedule, with my weekends booked from dawn to dusk, my weekdays spent at school, and my weeknights packed solid with teaching until bedtime.
Why am I doing this to myself? And where on Earth does blogging fit into this kind of life?
I’m also tired of gigging. Every gig I play these days reinforces my convictio that this is not the life for me. That’s precisely why I am in school now, and student teaching’s conclusion in a few weeks marks the final stretch of this journey.
The utter fatigue I feel makes me wonder what kind of blogging and podcasting time I will have as I transition into a new career. I know that my desire to blog will come back after this insane fall draws to a close, but I need to be careful not to overcommitt my more relaxed schedule with Internet activities.
Life’s too short to spend every minute working. The last few years have been, with a few rare moments here and there, constant, mind numbing work, and I want to try my best to seek a balance, to have time with my wife, time to go for a stroll along the lake, time to read a book, see a movie, or have a relaxing evening devoid of teaching, working, gigglng, blogging, or podcasting.
I’m not sure how exactly I’ll go about this. But there’s got to be a way.